I have tried so many times
and tried and tried again to sit and talk
but I don't know where to begin.
I have sat and said I loved you.
Never once have you said a heart-felt "I love You".
I have held your tembling hands
never to get held back.
No, just the opposite.
For as a child, you got rid of me.
I have tried to sit and talk
but all you care about is yourself,
your coffee and your cigarettes.
I watch you sip your coffee from my cup.
Red lipstick stains the cup.
How I wish your lips touched my cheek.
How I wish your hands would hug me.
But alas, maybe someday but not today.
The time has finally come.
Yes, today is a new day!~
I sit and talk to you for hours.
You never interrupt.
Your trembling hands don't reach for a cigarette.
You red lips don't sip my coffee cup.
Today is my day and your kind enough to
give me your undivided attention.
I talk for hours. I hold your hand.
And I finally say all the things I wanted to say.
Yes, all the world is right now.
As I cry and kiss your face.
The lid is closed.
I saw not a word.
I love you now as I never did before.