February 14, 2006

Hello my little one, another holiday has come and mommy is not with you. I’m sitting here hoping that grandmom and daddy will giving you as many kisses as the stars that twinkle in the sky. I love you my precious son and in their own way, grandma and daddy still love me too. I am sure when they look at you they see your smile and remember mommy.  I gave you life my son, how can they not think of me just a little? I wish you were old enough to tell all the grown ups to get along but we all will someday my son, all in time. We will all get along. It is ironic that mommy is not with you because daddy, grandma and mommy are all acting like babies not wanting to share a toy. (hahaha) Now, Baby James, don’t you grow up to be like this. We all love you.

Well lit’l tiger, this time last year, mommy and daddy had 2 long stem heart decorated glasses that sat in a vase and on Valentine’s Day, we drank sparkling grape juice, kissed each other and told each other we loved each other very much and then, you starting kicking inside mommy and I put daddy’s hand on top of my tummy to feel you and guess what you did?  You stopped! I went to show daddy what you were doing and you stopped. (hehehe) That’s my boy!

Well since you are not with me and daddy is not with me, I still wanted to express my love for you Baby James. So, mommy went out and bought a balloon, you love balloons don’t you my son?  Well, mommy bought the balloon and tied a note to the end of it, and sent if off into the sky exactly at midnight.  It was cold outside, 28 degrees, and the wind was whirling and there was a light orange full moon. Boy son, you should have seen how fast and high that balloon went. I tied a note on the end of it and sent it up to God.  It looked so beautiful as that red shaped, I love you balloon, was passing the full orange colored moon. It was a picture of love that only God could draw. And God said to me, Annie, Baby James loves you as much as I do.

I wiped a tear from my eye and thanked God for you and said I love you Baby James and have a Happy Valentine’s day. We’ll be together soon and I will buy you another balloon.

All my love,